Let's see. I went to bed around 10 pm but didn't fall asleep until 12 because Cole didn't want to sleep. I got up at 5:15 today because I planned to leave later. I did all the get ready for work stuff and fed Cole one last time at 6:25 am. Traffic was okay today and I made it to work by 7:10 which I was happy that I was later but frustrated that I was still so early. I played phone games in my car until 7:35 and then went in early and put all my stuff away. I talked with my co-workers and felt significantly better about how the day was going. First break rolls around and I'm excited I have all of the pieces of my pump today. I go to the break room and take all the pieces out. Then I rinse off the pump and turned around to get the cord. When I turn back around, the little purple valve part that makes the pump have suction is missing. I look in every nook and cranny of the room, my bag, my lunch box, everything. It is nowhere to be found. I don't have any time left so I pack everything back up and run back to class 5 minutes late. Again pain is a constant reminder that I didn't pump.
We then go to lunch at 12:30 so I run to my car and drive to Babies R Us right up the street. They don't carry any Evenflo breast pump products at that store. I get back with about 15 minutes left and talk to my trainer. With tears in my eyes (which I made sure to keep there, I'm not weak!) I explained what was happening and asked if I could come back a little late from lunch. Of course she was totally understanding and gave me extra time. I went and hand pumped 2 ounces! 1 ounce better than yesterday from both. Although, I did considerably better, it still hurt and my hands were in pain. On my second break (15 minutes) I pumped 1/2 an ounce.
After getting off work and sitting in traffic for an hour and a half, I went to Target where I bought my Evenflo pump two years ago. I get to the breastfeeding isle and they no longer carry my pump or any of the accessories. Keep in mind I only need a little tiny purple piece to have a fully working pump again. The pump they have there now is bigger than mine and they don't have any accessories for it so I can't even see if the blue piece in it is the size I need for my pump. Again with those same tears welling up I went home and opened google. I went to Evenflo's website and they no longer carried my model number or my accessories. Amazon had my pump for $15 more than I payed for it. My mom calls me and I start to cry. I was so upset. I don't have the money until next Friday to buy a pump and I can't replace the part. There is no way I can hand express enough to sustain my son for another week and a half. My mom tells me to calm down that she is coming to get me to take me to Target. She says she will buy me a replacement pump. Best thing I've heard all day!! We get to Target and she bought me a pump that I can hold with 1 hand and it will pump both at the same time. I now have a pump that will work for tomorrow! Finally something went right. *I love you Mom!!* I just want to let you moms out there know that even though I've had an unusual bad luck streak with my pump, it is possible. Just keep trying! Tomorrow we will see what the day will throw my way. Whatever it is I will face it with a strong heart and a positive mind set. (and possibly a shimmer of tears)
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